I Just Can't Wait!

These 4 little words were something I used to say as a kid this time of year, and Im sure you said them too. As an adult it seems like time moves faster and waiting is not the norm, especially in today's instant gratification market with fast food, faster internet and the fastest technology being available from one moment to the next. If you have been visiting this little archaic blog site of mine, you know I'm on a journey - just like all of you. The "problem" is, I feel I spend a lot of time in the "waiting room" of God's plans and purposes. This past week I was given a little more patience to wait for Him, kinda like when you're waiting for your food at a restaurant and the host will come over to check in on you, so you don't feel like you've been forgotten.

I landed on this Scripture yesterday as I seek the LORD in another "waiting room", "Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14 NIV. As I meditated on this Passage and allowed God to reveal what He was telling me, I began to think of working out. Weird, right? Well not really because this is how my relationship with God works, He will speak in a manner in which I can understand Him. Essentially the LORD was speaking to me through my own struggle with getting back to the gym regularly and back to the weights I was able to lift without problems before the pandemic. God was telling me that waiting is like lifting weights. As I begin lifting 25 pounds with ease the weight becomes heavier with added reps and sets but it is building that endurance, strength and perseverance to move on to heavier weight the next time I work on that area of my body.

Waiting is like building muscle strength. Waiting on Him for a time may prove difficult but it builds my endurance in just being in a place of waiting. If you've ever lifted weights, you know that sometimes in those last reps you may struggle and after that final one you nearly throw that weight off. As I sat with the LORD, He continued to speak to my impatience by taking me to another bit of Scripture, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13 NIV. So not only am I being impatient but I'm also not seeking the LORD with a right heart. Sounds harsh, doesn't it? Not necessarily, because in my spirit I knew that God was judging me rightly. The waiting builds perseverance but it is also revealing other bits of brokenness and work that is needing to be done. Waiting is not passive but truly active when you are truly seeking God's purpose and plan.

Sometimes we wait because God wants to speak to depths of our heart that we are reluctant to either give up, change or both. He is working within the places of my heart that carry a little bit of shadow. He wants me to continue in the work He has called me to but wants my heart in the right place to continue on in that work and hopefully move on into another waiting room. Following God is always a process. It would be nice when we accept Christ as our Savior that everything in us would be perfect but that is not how it works....and that is definitely a topic for another day.

I went back to that first bit of Scripture and read the verse above which reads, "I am still confident in this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living." Psalm 27:13 NIV. Waiting for God, whether for an answer to prayer, healing, provision etcetera. The waiting should come with the confidence that I will see the LORD's goodness move - yet again. And I have, in these last 3 years my waiting has put me in a place I would never have imagined and have ZERO experience in. But as I continue to wait for the next season, the next place, the next waiting room I become stronger in my waiting. I will strengthen myself by worshipping Him for His goodness, for the promises He has already fulfilled and praising Him for all of that and more. The waiting strengthens me, my faith, and my heart. Waiting changes me from the inside and I can better serve God in those places He is sending me. Waiting is not easy and many of us are waiting but what are we doing in the season of waiting. I have other posts about waiting so I suppose that is what I need to remind myself and those of you who read my little blog. Wait on Him, stay right there, and praise God for this opportunity to wait on Him. The song below has been carrying me through lately, listen and be blessed.

Warrior On!