Mission: Possible

"That was THE day.", is my thought as I look at this picture from so many years ago. A picture I forgot but not the face or the decision that would change more than one life.

My daughter and her biological mom. (September 2008)

I like to go back thru my Facebook posts from years past, you know, in the "memories" section. As I opened it up today, I had posted some pictures from 2008 and one of the photos captures the face of my daughter, her 2 sisters and her biological mother. If you've read my previous blog posts you would know my only child is adopted and if you know me personally you know it was not an easy road to travel. My daughter was 4 at the time this photo was taken and this day, this exact day, would be the day her biological mother became so selfless. She would give her daughter, her flesh and blood a gift but little did she know she was also fulfilling a desire of mine. There were many things said that day but the one thing she said in our conversation has been with me since that very day, "I cannot give her what you have, the only thing I can do for her is give her to you because I know you love her like I do." My daughter's biological mother doing what the mother from 1 Kings 3 did, she gave her baby up to save him from being cut in half. We weren't cutting my daughter in half but there was so much that went into our relationship with her biological family that may have mentally and emotionally.

So why is this a part of my post today? As I opened up my Bible to prepare for my day, I flipped it to the book of Isaiah and read: "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19 NIV. As I have written before, my husband and I could not have children and God made a way in the impossible for us to have a child. You see my daughter is an enrolled Native American and her mother as well, which means adoption of a Native child is highly unlikely and for the most part NEVER done. Her mother was part of God's plan, in my prayers to some day have a child of our own. The circumstances and how this story came about is one that has His hand all over.

What I opened my Bible up to this morning.

I know there have been many times in my life where I am at a loss at how something is going to happen when it seems near impossible. It's usually then that the Hand of God starts stirring things up and making a way where there is no way, in the natural or by man's standard. When I think about the current condition of our world I know there are many of you out there who wonder..."how are we gonna __________?" "what am I/we gonna do?" "God, why?". I like to write notes to myself in my Bible and want my Bible to be so well worn and written on that when I am no longer on this Earth my legacy will lie within its pages. So with this particular Passage I have have a note written "He makes a way when it seems impossible." I don't know what I was going thru then but whatever it was I leaned on this Scripture for comfort and peace.

I have been through many situations great and insignificant, where God said, "Watch this!" or in a funnier thought, "Hold My Beer". For those who may think being a Christian means 1. we have it all together 2. we never doubt or 3. we are perfect, the posts of this Blog should show you that is definitely not the case. I have been following the LORD for near 19 years now and I know that He has a sense of humor, He is real, and His timing or His plan is never what I want it to be. Christianity is being "all in" even if you're uncertain and albeit a lot scared. This is something I say to people, especially when they say, "I think this is what God wants me to do but I'm scared." My response - DO IT SCARED! Because believe me I'm living out doing it scared right now....but that is for another post. God only wants our total trust in Him. To trust He knows what He is doing and that all will be alright. My life verse, "Trust the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV.

Today was reminder to trust, a reminder of when I was in a time of impossible, God made it possible. The pages of our Bible are full of impossibilities, the parting of the Red Sea (Exodus 14), Sarah giving birth at an old age (Genesis 21), a man being given sight (John 9), and a woman's healing and dignity returned (Luke 8) - just to name a few. Then why do we, as believers, have such a hard time in believing with certainty the God of impossibilities will do what He says? Paul says, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 ESV. Cliché? Maybe, for some. But when you live it out you truly begin to see God's work for your good, the good of your children, family, friends, even when it seems impossible, remember - He is the God of impossibilities and that's when He does some of His best work!

God knows I never expected to have children, let alone receive one who was given so selflessly. There is not a day I am not thankful for this woman, whom I grew to respect and admire for her selfless love. So if anything, I hope this post is a reminder and an encouragement to be hopeful, expectant and ready for the impossible to take place.

Warrior On!